This is going to be the hardest post I’ve ever had to write. My heart is heavy, I am in shock. I am deeply profoundly… sad. It feels like the air has been sucked out of the world. We have lost a very dear man, a hero, a true warrior in the autism and mercury poisoning community.
We lost the man who saved my son from autism! The man who led the charge in safe chelation. The man who save ME from mercury poisoning.
I feel as part of Andy’s legacy I need to talk about the man I knew.
Andrew Hall Cutler, PhD, or as we fondly call him, Andy, the well-educated Princeton man who knew so much about so many things. He was the man behind the frequent dose chelation movement. Heck, he invented it!! That’s why it’s called ACC or Andy Cutler chelation. He was mercury poisoned himself by amalgam fillings and found that mainstream chelation was getting it all wrong. It was making people worse. Rather than accept that, he led the charge to develop a safe protocol. He chelated himself safely and went on to teach the rest of the world.
Without Andy, I would still be very sick and I would not be sitting here writing this post today. Let me tell you about the man I knew.
I began my journey on the Autism-Mercury Yahoo group in 2006. This is where I met him years ago. Andy interpreted my kid’s hair tests for me….for free. He did that for tons of people all the time. Andy answered thousands of questions through email, online groups, by phone…….every day, all week, all year. He never stopped helping random nameless strangers all over the world asking for his help. I used to try to imagine what his inbox looked like when he logged in…because I know mine was full. His must have been massive. Somehow he still replied.
He was there with his knowledge when we encountered some tremendous struggles with my son’s health that didn’t even have anything to do with mercury or autism. I have years of emails from him and ya know what? He never once asked me for anything in return. That was Andy.
He knew there were millions of us lurking out here in the online world suffering…terribly, from mercury poisoning and his mission was to get them the information they needed to get their health back
I had the unique gift to be more than just a mercury poisoned mom or parent of an autistic kid. Andy and I were forum gurus, and business colleagues. We were in the trenches fighting the same war. Without him, neither of my books would exist and all those children that are healing today because of Fight Autism and Win, would not be.
That is an epic rippled effect. A huge legacy. The number of lives he’s touched is innumerable.
When I was writing my chelation books, Andy was there. Encouraging me, giving his suggestions and his approval. In fact one of our last Facebook messages was him encouraging to me to write another book. He felt that Tressie and I worked well together, we wrote well together, and he wanted us to write another book. It was his words that encouraged me. Here he is this published PhD scholar and he’s telling me “Hey, you’re good at this, write more!”.
Andy was truly one of a kind. He was something special. He had a way of handling people to motivate them into doing something. He moved millions into doing something about their mercury poisoning. How many people have that kind of oomph!
Andy was in essence…a force beyond comprehension. Andy was brilliant. He never stopped amazing me with the plethora of things he knew.
He was even there as a mentor and advisor in all things business and authorship.
He and I had this ongoing thing of back and forth emails about copyright infringements. He’d find one for my books and tell me. I’d find one on his books and tell him. He always thanked me. I didn’t have to do it and he knew that….he appreciated it. Andy took me under his wing as an author and helped me navigate life as an author. There were so many new things to deal with when you go from forum parent or moderator to a published author. Andy showed me those ropes. Again, never asking me for anything in return.
Beyond our business relationship as fellow authors and entrepreneurs….
I can’t begin to say how I feel about him in terms of my children. Without Andy, I can’t imagine where my son would have ended up. Not just my son but looking at my healthy successful adult daughter today…..that’s all because of Andy.
I truly owed him my life. I could never repay him for these gifts he gave me and the entire mercury community. I hope his family knows how much we all appreciated him.
Exchanging holiday cards, book orders, late night email discussions about all sorts of things…I’m going to miss those things. So many nights over the last 10 years of firing off a late night email, “Hey Andy, I got a questions about….?” I always sent it under the assumption that he didn’t have to answer it and if he did, it might be a few days or a week. Five minutes later I had an answer in my inbox. That was Andy
We’d go back and forth discussing this or that. Many times talking about things that had no relation to mercury at all.
For life of me I don’t know how he juggled it all but he didn’t know I juggled it all either. He told me he had the greatest respect for a mom like me that juggled not only a special needs child, but homeschooling and still managing my book sales, and the forums. I was still helping others…when I was so tired and had so little left to give. He recognized that when few people did.
I loved his perspective and I could always count on him to analyze something fairly. If I were upset about a situation, he helped me take the emotional response out of it and look at it more objectively. He was perspective for many of us. He was our leader, our guide, our light at the end of the tunnel. He was more than just some guy online with a chelation protocol. He was a pillar and founder of this movement.
He was very good at resisting the rumor mills, the conspiracy theories, or other modalities that crop up in the mercury online community. He was grounded in reality. He grounded many of us in it as well by pulling us back when mercury was pushing one into that mad hatter’s world.
It’s hard to write this because this is a loss that can’t be computed. You can’t replace Andy and you wouldn’t want to try. He was one of a kind. I think it’s important to remember that he may be gone but a little bit of him is with each of us. The way he mentored so many of us, taught us what he knew, left us with his writings/books. He has left us a wonderful gift of his work and his knowledge.
His work and his contributions will continue through all of us. This torch will be carried by those of us who knew him and worked alongside Andy doing what he did. We are his Army. We will not stop his mission, but we will carry it forth.
We will continue to teach others how to do safe chelation. We will help them get their health back like he helped so many of us. We will continue to honor him and share his legacy.
From my family to Andy’s family, you have our deepest condolences and our gratitude for sharing this beloved man with us. He spent a lot of time online with all of us and that must have been a sacrifice for you. We are truly indebted and grateful.
I’m going to miss Andy….